It really is no small thing to learn to love oneself. Such a well meaning phrase so overused it can almost feel like criticism when someone reminds you to "love yourself". At least it used to feel like criticism to me. I used to try , effort and work so hard to "love myself".
After a few decades of practice.....and true dedication to this art.....I recognize it to be one of life's finest and most grand adventures.
I heard of a quote that supposively was from Buddha..."if you can learn to love yourself this lifetime you are a master. If you can truly love one other person beside yourself....than you are a Buddha". Whether that came from the Mahatma Buddha or not...that quote sure feels accurate to me.
Tonight....as I danced round on the floor of my home studio with a small group of dedicated 5 rhythms students who come on tuesday evenings for an open practice of "Dance Sanctuary"....i was filled with energy coming purely from self love. No story about any " one" else. But a true "hum" in constant vibrational awareness of my connection to the whole and individuals within it who are working alongside of me..
Energized by just a hum in my body....for I am loving it. A hum in my heart...for I am feeling it and accepting it. A hum in my mind....for it is quiet and able to feel the music of life. A hum in my spirit....for it is at peace with living in truth and beginning to fully surrender to this amazing blessed awareness I have to offer and serve with.
Less and less interested in giving time or energy to being hard on myself. More and more interest in giving time and energy to that which feeds my life force and its ability to love, give, receive, create, offer, enjoy, nurture and serve.
Less afraid of my desires and their unknown outcomes as I learn to dance with the beauty of the attractions and understand what they feed . I can listen and deeply fearlessly be willing to investigate what these desires feed and then allow them room to dance with me, teach me, show me, whisper to me, and gracefully open to them.
Or compassionately comfort the desire if its outcome leads to anything other than love and redirect its misguided intent towards home. Innocent child Desire. When Desire no longer is a battle; when we trust our self love enough to allow our desire to dance in love, kindness, integrity and self respect....we can find a true rhythm of harmony into the unknown..
In gratitude to remembering our way home. In gratitude to all of you who are inspiring my desire....may we all find our rhythms of acceptance. Aho. To all our relations. One Self and One Love Dancing with you in the Mirror. How beautiful for your reflection. Thank you.